The System is Screwed UP

Well one of my friends brought up a great chat stream on facebook. She has not seen her husband since Monday. Now mind you it is Tuesday evening. Her husband along with mine are police officers. So here we go.......

My husband puts his life on the line everyday. Everyday he is working he is dealing with jackasses, criminals drug dealers even murders. Now he loves this job!!! But he would have to because he differently does not love it for the money. He has been there 8 years and I get paid more than him, I am in Mortgage.

Every police officer I know has to put their jobs before their family. And you have to know this before going into the marriage. If they put their family before their job I would be very worried about their safety. They have to be all in this job. Not for one second can they wonder away or something could go wrong.

Now my husband decided to take us off his insurance and me and the kids were getting our own to save money. We are paying less BUT he has a take home car.. Oh you say that is great. Yes in a way. BUT he pays to take it home, he pays to use it for details!!! So really it sucks having a take home car. Even if he has to go to court on his day off, he has to pay for it. So are we really saving money.

You see all these athletes getting paid millions because they can throw a football, dribble a basketball or even musicians can sing. But teachers and police officers and yes nurses get paid SHIT!!!!! People who save our lives, keep our lives saves and mold our young get the short end of the deal. What is wrong with that picture????????

Ok I am done ranting. Thanks Shawnie I feel better getting this out. :)

UP and At It

Well it is now 6:06 am on Tuesday. I am feeling much better than I have been. There is still some pain but not nearly as bad as it has been. Thank goodness.

Do you ever wonder how the body works? And why it works that way? Like how does the body know to get cancer? A cold I understand because of germs. But what about breast cancer? I don't think and one certain item gets in your body to give you breast cancer. Or what about headaches? Really how does the veins in your brain swell? I guess the body is a very mysterious thing.

I am watching Deven grown right in front of my eyes. I can not believe he is adding and subtracting double numbers already. 7 more days and the little man will be 5. He told me lastnight that he did not want his name any more. That now he wanted to change it to Chris LOL.. Of course his dad loved that!

Kaiden actually woke up once lastnight. Either she is sleeping better or I just didn't hear her and she put her self back to sleep, which is good. Her smile can light up a room. I know she will grow up like her brother and be just as loving.

Well I think I have rambled on enough for a Tuesday Morning.

Well Then Everyone Should be happy

Sitting here watching my shows. Americas Next Top Model, Big Brother, 90214.... So excited.

I am thinking to myself "Self how does one person have so much hate in them" I ask this because I work with someone who just is not a happy person. Or from what I understand is that I just don't understand their personality. They like to put people down, talk down to them. You can tell that laughter and happiness is really forced. I am for the most part a happy person. And it really upsets me that someone can be like this. But all I can do is kill with kindness and turn the cheek when things are said.

I am having lots of pain and really don't know why. The doctor says it could be a cysts or polyps on my ovaries. I go Sunday to get an ultrasound. I look like I am about 3 months preg. I really don't care about the look but I am over the pain. He has given me 2 types of medication and noting is helping.

Ok enough of my mind for one night.

Goodnight all

This Morning.

I wake up to the sounds of Kaiden with a stuffy nose and having a hard time going back to sleep. I go in and check on her she looks at me and smiles. I know at that time that yes she has melted my heart again. What a great feeling.

Going out with the girls tonight. I am really excited about it. I haven't been "out" in over 5 years. Even though my husband told me yesterday that Lake CO is have check points all around our house so there is no way to get home with out running into one. Oh well this will not ruin my night.

Going to Chris's softball game this AM. I am sure it will be hotter than hell. But fun to watch. Then I may stop at a yard sale or too. :)

Deven is doing great at Preschool. No letters home or phone calls. So that is a good thing. I can't not believe he is going to be 5 soon. Where did the 2 year old go???

Ok off to start my day.

A day of Turkey Burgers

Sitting here with the hubby while he watches Recuse me. He made turkey burgers tonight for dinner.. All I can say is YUMMY. I will be eating them now over hamburgers. And I am sure the Moo Cows will be happy to hear that lol.

Listening to the storm outside getting ready to start. I love when it storms here. I like to turn out all the lights crack the window just a bit and just listen. Do people ever listen anymore. Really do they ever just stop and listen. Right now people are too busy bitching and complaining about everything. But really just stop and listen to the slience. It really is golden.

Well really that is all I have for tonight. Off to the storm.

Happiness

Yes I am sitting here thinking I really should be cleaning up or exercising or something. Not on this damn computer trying to figure this damn blog out. But here I am. :)

Today at work I thought you know as much crazy stuff goes on there and as much of the right hand doesn't know what the left hand is doing, I am so glad to have a job. Its sad to know that there are still people out there about to be homeless.

How about a more happier note.

Coming home and seeing my 2 kids smiling. Smiling not only because they are kids and well loved but because they are truly happy. We don't and can't buy them everything but what they have they are truly happy. Well ok Deven is Kaiden just sees the world as one big play area.

Ok out for the night. Will try to figure more out.

Later

Me

Holy Man

Well I wish I had a person chef and personal trainer and personal this and that. But since I don't this is all on my own. I am going to challenge myself to do this. Our anniversary is in October and we are now planning to go down south for vacation. We wanted to go to Jamaica but way to much.

So day 4 of no smoking. Eating is up and down. I did sign up for Jillian Michaels news letter. Starting Monday I will be taking my shoes to work to walk for 30mins at lunch. Then when I get the kids to bed I will be doing Zumba.

Well off to bed.. Any suggestions or ideas to help please let me know.